tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-54126314722340363342023-06-20T22:06:42.290-07:00Schlicht und EinfachPlain and SimpleV'Leinahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07792728187065072349noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5412631472234036334.post-27749358177401115122012-09-26T14:46:00.000-07:002012-09-26T14:46:06.778-07:00Words Cannot Convey My DismayI believe it is probably safe to assume that anyone reading this here doesn't know much about me as I haven't really spread much of my wings on Blogger so I will begin with a bit of background on me.<br />
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I'm a 17 year old senior in High School. Brown hair, blue eyes, the whole bit. And for those who honestly know nothing of me, I have wanted to join the Navy for nearly the past two years of my life. Maybe that isn't much, but I have based and formed an idea of my future around the idea that I was to enter.<br />
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Let me give you a bit more information: I was diagnosed with ADHD by a woman who had been diagnosing children for twenty years; she said I was the worse case she had seen thus far.<br />
I also have depression. I don’t really know what type or how bad it is, I just know that the medication I take for it is and has been very important since I started taking it.<br />
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I actually didn’t realize how bad my depression was until I started the medication and finally started to feel… okay.<br />
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I talked with a friend (either last night or the night before, I forget. Sleep deprivation.) and I expressed how I felt like… Dependent on it. They said “Well, you wouldn’t say a diabetic is dependent on insulin, would you?” They could honestly not have made a better analogy. And it’s true. I take the lowest dose of my medication but it literally makes a world of a difference.<br />
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Well, for those of you who haven't or aren't going in to the military,<b> if you are taking medication for ADHD/ADD, anxiety or depression</b>, you are <b>automatically ineligible</b> to enter the Navy until you have been off the medication for a year.<br />
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All of these things you are born with, have no control over, and cannot help.<br />
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I really wish I could fully come to understand why they do this but I am so disappointed. I obviously refuse to drop my anti-depressants right now as I'm am going through some tough shit. It would be just silly of me to even try at this point.<br />
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But I honestly don't think I can ever just not take them. Depression is something I have, not something I can make go away or cure. Maybe someday I'll be able to handle it without the aid of medication but I just don't see that happening anytime soon. It saddens me that the government doesn't see or understand that.<br />
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ADD/ADHD is something that can even being crippling; and it has definitely impacted my life both negatively and positively. It's only by choice that I am not medicating for it. I am lucky enough to not require it to function. But it is also something I cannot get rid of. This all goes hand in hand with anxiety.<br />
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So, today, I am just feeling very let down and sad that I may never be able to go into the service. Something that really could have been a career in my life. And I may no longer be able to do it. Because I was born with depression. Because I feel I cannot function properly without the medication. Because the ignorance of the reality of my mental illness is still ignored by so many, and this truly, really saddens me.<br />
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-V'Leina<br />
V'Leinahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07792728187065072349noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5412631472234036334.post-86399914939392199762012-08-11T18:43:00.000-07:002012-08-11T18:43:57.240-07:00WIPCurrently working on translating "Colors of the Wind" into Vulcan. It's a slow process but I'll put something worthwhile on here eventually.<br />
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Sorry this first post is short and sweet but it won't be my last.<br />
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Sochya eh dif<br />
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-V'LeinaV'Leinahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07792728187065072349noreply@blogger.com0